Friday, June 24, 2011

Jiwang di Pagi Hari : Dear Mr Red Ribbon... | 29 days left

Selamat pagi, Mr Red Ribbon...
Tengah busy ke kat ofis?

Minta maaf xbole tolong pindah rumah, sebab jauh, camne nak tolong?
Harap2 abang sewa lori tue bole tolong ek...
Tapi bagi tahu baik2 jangan sampai peluh dia menitik lagi cam hari tue me pindah...
Nanti almari tue berubah kaler jadi kuning dan berbau lagi :(
Kalau bole bagi dia tissue ke tuala kecik yer :D
Cian dia kan penat angkat2 barang...


Anyway Mr Red Ribbon...
The closer to the date the more scare I am.
Mungkin busy ngan all the preparation sampai terlupakan rasa2 dalam hati...
It's LESS THAN A MONTH left and I'm just too worried that... 
Kita tak bole satukan perbezaan...

I know it won't be that easy.
You grew up for 28 years in Malaysia.
And I grew up for 24 years in Indonesia (and another 6 years at Malaysia)
You spent your childhood, teenagehood, everything at an environment and place that most probably so much different with which environment I was in.
All these 2.5 years, I think we only can accept each other's differences for like only 10%, or less, i don't know...

Started from language differences...
Oh my... It's not as easy as it looks.
Especially when I'm mad, I can't think of some Malay words in that short period of time, so I'm just marah2 in Bahasa Indonesia, which probably you didn't understand.
Now you got to bear with it...


Sometimes I feel that it wasn't fair for me yang me selalu ada kat Malaysia,
I live your way, I eat your food (while you, sometimes doesn't wanna try my food), I spoke your language, I dress in baju kurung (even before I was a bit no no wearing baju kurung, now I like to wear it), I know many things from my experiences living in Malaysia.

And you? 

I was so happy to see (lately) you talking with my Indonesian friend, you spoke the language (even tho with some errors in it), and you eager to travel to Indonesia, get to know the culture, I like it.
Coz if not, I just feel so 'kecik hati'...

But understanding between both of us might not the only thing that matter.
It is the family also.
Sometimes ada rasa risau yang my family can accept you and your background, and your family can accept me and my background. This is sometimes even harder...

But so far I'm feeling okay with everything, just afraid it will turn out bad when something occured. Prays it will not.
We just need some strength...


And I mean what's written above.

Hope we can keep on trying to fully accept each other.
No problem in this world that can't be solved.
Talk, communicate, don't ever forget about it.
Don't make me feel like I'm your enemy until you hide so many things from me.
For the sake of reason: don't wanna fight.
No, no, no, we can solve everything and I'll be here as your very best friend forever :)
I don;t want you afraid of me.
I am not a MONSTER.
I am your cute lil kitten ready to love you :)


One more thing, you are now so far away...
And I'm kinda missing you...
Take care there :)




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